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第12章意犹未尽的思念（12）
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Theywereveryhardletters，thosefromdearestPapaaGee.TothefirstIhadtobowmyhead，Idoomyselftohavedeservedthatfulltheiionsofthisact，butheismyfatheraakeshisownview，ofcourse，ofwhatisbeforehimtojudgeof.Butfe，Ithoughtithard，Ifess，thatheshouldhavewrittehasword.TowritetomeasifIdidnotloveyouall，Iwhowouldhavelaiddowasign，ifitcouldhavebeedoneofyoureallyaially，withtheproof，youshouldhavehadlifeaasign.
Itwashardthatheshouldusehisloveformetohalfbreakmyheartwithsuchaletter.Oeiandinignorance.IaskofGodtoshowtohimaunbelievingofyou，thatnever，neverdidIloveyoubetter，allmybelovedohayou，thaninthatday，andthatmoment.
&，dearestArabel！
Uandbothofyou，thatif，fromtheappareiesoftheinstant，Itedtolettheyprecedethedeparturebysomefewdays，itoionofnotseeinghimagaininthathouseaa>
&ed，aswemet，atthedoorofMaryleboneChurch，hehelpedmeattheuawordpassedafter.Ilookedlikedeath，hehassaidsince.Youseewewereafraidofasuddenremeverything，oratleast，layingtheunessonmeofajouroLoothey，whichparticularlyIshouldhavehated，forveryobviousreasons.Thereementisimplyaprivatemarriage；aheleastotoaclassofobservatinanttobothofus，Wilsohingtillthenightbefore.WhatIsufferedunderyoureyes，youmayguess，itortiosuccessfullymadetodisguisethesuffering.Painfulitistolookbaivemeforwhateveriatediofmyheart.
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DidyougetmyloerfromParis？AndTrippy，myshortnotefromHavre.Ah，dearTrippy！
Lethernotthinkhardlyofme.Noonejudgeofthisact，exeonewhoknhlythemanIhavemarried.Herisesonmehourbyhour.Ifeverabeingofahigherorderlivedamonguswithagloryrouheselatterdays，heissug.
PapathinksthatIhavesoldmysenius，meregenius.WhichImighthavedonewhenIwasyounger，ifIhadhadtheopportunity，butaminnnow.Formysake，fortheloveofme，fromaninfatuationwhifirsttolasthasastonishedme，hehastedtooeioion.
Butthosewhoquestionmost，willdohimjusticefullest，awaitalittlewithresignation.Inthemeaheis，aome，Iwouldfainteachyou.Havefaithi.Heputsoutallhisgreatfaepleasureandsmeintothinkingofhimwhehoughtswanderiosmileinspiteofnilofthem，ifyouhadseenhimthatdayatOrleans.
Helaidmedownobymeforhoutfloodsoftendernessandgoodness，andpromisingtowinbae，withGod'shelp，theaffeofsuchofyry.Andhelovesmemoreaodaywehavebeenight，aome，seriouste;Ikissedyourfeet，myBa，beforeImarriedyou，butnowIwouldkissthegroundunderyourfeet，Iloveyouwithasomuchgreaterlove."Andthisistrue，Iseeandfeel.Ifeeltohavethepowerofmakinghimhappy，Ifeeltohaveitinmyhands.Itisstraanyonesobrilliantshouldloveme，buttrueais，anditisimpossibleformetodoubtitalyhappythereforeweshouldbe，ifIcouldlookbayouallwithoutthispang.Hisfamilyhavebeenverykind.Hisfathersideredhimofagetojudge，aotherwisethanofsayimoment.Giveyourwifeakissforme，this，wheed.Hissisterseletravellingwritihawordwritten，"E.B.B.fromhersisterSarianna."Nobodyleasedatthereserveusedtowardsthem，uandingthattherewerereasonsforitwhiotdetrahisaffea.
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ButIthink...think...ofthesufferingIyown，owevenihinkingofyouthatevening，myowdearestArabel！
Oh，donotfanewaffeundotheold.IloveyounowevehiisgoingtowritetoyoufromPisa，aaalso.Helovesyouashissisters，hesays，ayouwereesthatonedayyouwillbewithus，stayingahus，exactlyasIdomyself.
Anddoyoufeelandknow，thatasforme，formypositionasawife，itisayforthisworld.Heistoogoodandtender，andbeyohings，aherwithalovethatgrowsinsteadofdiminishioyouofsugratherthahedralatBes，because，itisofthese，Ifeelsure，thatyoudesirekher.
IamgoingtowritetoPapa，andte，verysoon，Ishall.Ah，dearGeewouldenso，ifhehadknow，yethelovedmewhilehewrote，asIfeltwitheverypaiingcausedme.DearGee，lovehimtohisoorPapa！
Mythoughtsgtoyouall，andwillheirhold.DearestHeaamebeaseverandforever.
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（Roaober2，1846
亲爱的妹妹们：
感谢和祝福你们，我最亲爱的亨里埃塔、阿拉贝尔……我最亲最爱的妹妹们——到了奥尔良，我遭受了什么呀——终于接到了你们的来信，我对你们的感激，就像我所遭受的痛苦一样深，像我在你们来信的字里行间留的泪水和亲吻一样多……你们是最亲爱最善良的。
在巴黎耽搁了一周，因此一到奥尔良我就得面临死亡时刻——我当时称它为“死亡许可证”
，我是那样地担忧和害怕。
罗伯特抱来了一大摞信件……我把它们抓在手里，可一封也打不开。
我浑身颤抖，脸色越发苍白，四肢越发冰凉。
他想坐在我身旁，看着我读这些信，但我没有答应，我决不让他在那一刻到来时这样做——因此，一番央求后，我让他离开10分钟，以便自己独自承受这极度的痛苦。
你们知道，按以往的习惯，那样会使我更坚强——而且，不让他看这些信是对的……
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